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[10 May 2006|05:33pm] |
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it's official: i got all a's this semester. i haven't done that since high school. i'm so freaking excited. things are back on track.
don't say i didn't try.
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| this is not about love |
[08 May 2006|09:27pm] |
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'cause i am not in love
in fact i can't stop falling out
i miss that stupid ache
fuck unhappy endings
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| it's on till the break of dawn |
[07 May 2006|02:15pm] |
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i love sundays. it's the only day of the week that i have off and i feel like i deserve to be lazy, which i invariably am on sundays. i had a really good weekend and i'm ready for summer to be here with the warm weather and trips to the lake and everyone in louisville. summer classes start tomorrow, though, so i have had no break from school. oh well, c'est la vie. it's funny how things work out. i realized today how much progress i'm making when something that normally makes me sick to my stomach, didn't phase me at all.
But we went on whole hearted it ended bad
But I love what we started
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| "you're a brawler." |
[03 May 2006|06:29pm] |
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so cynthia, alice and i have pretty much decided that we are definitely going to canada this summer. cyn and i sat down last night and figured out exactly how much it's going to cost for the three of us to go and i'm so freaking excited. we're ninety percent sure we're going to montreal. i'm finally finished with school and i'm definitely going to u of l next semester. i'll be working so much this summer i'll be able to pay back money that i owe. this summer is going to be pretty fun and i feel like things in my life are finally going right. i'm saying peace out to drama.
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| "but i'm not a stupid whore..." |
[26 Apr 2006|04:03pm] |
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cyn and i went shopping last night. we almost had to throw down because this stupid chach almost ran over us and then she starts yelling at us as if it's our fault. i was so pissed. got such cute clothes though and this one shirt in particular that i am going to wear the next chance i get. last day of communications and philosophy. then all i have to worry about is psychology. i can't wait to be done with school.
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| sylvia plath |
[25 Apr 2006|04:51pm] |
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead;
I lift my lids and all is born again.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)
The stars go watlzing out in blue and red,
And arbitrary blackness gallops in:
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.
I dreamed that you bewitched me into bed
And sung me moon-struck, kissed me quite
insane.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)
God topples from the sky, hell's fires fade;
Exit seraphim and Satan's men:
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.
I fancied you'd return the way you said,
But I grow old and forget your name.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)
I should have loved a thunderbird instead;
At least when spring comes they roar back
again.
I shut my eyes and the world drops dead.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)
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| somebody's got to see this through |
[19 Apr 2006|05:07pm] |
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trying another tactic with a certain part of my life. i hope it proves itself worth it. thunder this weekend. i haven't been to thunder since i was little and i used to go with my dad. alice and cyn and i decided we should go. it's going to be crazy getting there and back and finding a seat, but hopefully it will be worth it. i got rear-ended today. good times. there isn't any real damage, just some paint marks from the other car. the woman felt really badly and offered to pay for it and all that but it's not really that big of a deal. my neck kind of hurts, but it could have been a lot worse. only one week left of school then i will start working 40 plus hours at recreonics and possibly more at smoothie king. i can't wait to get my tax return because i'm going to treat myself to a little shopping. pretty boring post, but i'm waiting for class to start.
somebody's got to sacrifice
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| some need dollar bills lining their clothes |
[18 Apr 2006|05:30pm] |
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so dane cook was great. i was upset at first because i was in the balcony and we couldn't hear him, but they turned it up and it just got better from there. i was pretty much laughing the entire time. cynthia is finally back in town. we hung out yesterday and went shopping hung out with some people. fun fun. i'm so excited that she's here. i'm probably going to be transferring to u of l next semester which is great and a little sooner than i expected, but apparently it's a possibility.
quote of the day
"you look....wierd."
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| fuck fuck mother mother fuck |
[10 Apr 2006|03:56pm] |
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majorly stressing out right now. i have a huge philosophy test in twenty minutes that i've studied for all weekend and i seriously still feel like i'm going to do horribly. then, i have a cumulative communications test and a paper due tomorrow. plus, i still haven't done my taxes. i can't wait for this school and work week to be over. boston and dane cook in less than four days. that's my light at the end of the tunnel right now. i can't wait for school to be over and all i have to worry about is work.
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| "if i could start again, a million miles away, i would keep myself" |
[08 Apr 2006|05:14pm] |
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1. List five things you want to say to people but know you never will.
2. Don't say who they are.
3. Never discuss it again.
1. I blame you for everything. I wish I never would have met you.
2. You have no idea the extent of what I've done. If you knew, it would cripple you.
3. Please stop yelling about the most inane things. You make me sick to my stomach.
4. You are ruining any chance of ever having a relationship with me or him.
5. It wasn't that big of a deal. I had no idea it was going to affect you like this. It sucks that I'm completely shut out.
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| i make you laugh and you make me cry |
[03 Apr 2006|04:00pm] |
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things are going well. i've been working all the freaking time. forty hours a week at recreonics and then weekends at smoothie king. fun fun. i'm looking forward to having a steady paycheck and being able to actually save money. going to boston in less than two weeks. i'm so excited about seeing dane cook live. i predict that i will pretty much spend the entire time laughing my ass off. that's fine though. i need to laugh so hard my face hurts. cynthia is going to be home in less than two weeks and that is something else i'm majorly looking forward to. school assignments are piling up and i'm starting to get moderately stressed. research paper due in exactly a week, huge philosophy test on wednesday and a cumulative test in communications. great times for moi.
quote of the day:
"i can shake my ass in heels."
"i don't even know what that means."
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| stick it in the fridge |
[27 Mar 2006|08:22pm] |
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two and a half weeks till dane cook. a little taste of spring today. i love the smell of freshly cut grass and rain. cynthia is going to be home in two weeks. things are definitely looking up.
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| this thing called love, i just can't handle it |
[22 Mar 2006|05:02pm] |
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started my new job this week and i really like it. i'm basically an office assistant so i answer phones and stuff. the people i work with are really cool and the office is pretty laid back so i think i'll probably be there for a while. school's going really well for once. everything is pretty much falling into place and for that i am thankful. it seems like when one area of my life is going well another one starts to fall apart. i guess no one can have everything they want at exactly the same time.
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| the masquerade is scattering |
[20 Mar 2006|08:09pm] |
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sometimes i get in these ridiculously melancholy moods. i can't explain it, but i feel like there's so many things going on in my head, so many questions, so much to say and my thoughts stack on top of one another and the combination of everything i'm feeling is so indescribably suffocating and it leaves me with such a feeling of doom and despair. i swear to god i am in the fucking bell jar.
fuck this shit
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[20 Mar 2006|07:20pm] |
so yeah, scratch that last post. apparently male isn't cool enough for mtv, something to do with the uniforms and overall strictness of it. they opted for manual instead.
on another note, why do 12 year old girls need to go to victoria's secret? seriously, the only thing 12 year old girls should be concerned with is overnight acne explosion, graduating from training bras, and being taller than the boys their age.
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| fyi to any male high school alumni |
[08 Mar 2006|11:42am] |
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my brother goes to male and apparently the mtv reality show, made, is coming to male. they're having auditions next week some time. i don't know if anyone cares, but i thought it was pretty cool.
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| "we might die from medication, but we sure killed all the pain." |
[06 Mar 2006|11:14pm] |
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less than three days to boston. i have one test tomorrow and then i'm officially finished until after spring break. i got a job today and i start in two weeks. an actual forty hours a week job. i'm so excited, i just hope that i like it. it would have to be really horrible for me not to want to do it. i'm looking forward to having a steady paycheck and lots more money. it's nice that i'm taking all night classes because it allows me to work during the day. living at home isn't as bad as i thought it was going to be. i think my mom is really happy that i'm home. things are going pretty well. going to boston is something i've been looking forward to for two months and it's finally a couple of days away and i think that fact is contributing to my good mood. i'm pretty sure that i'm not going to want to come back home, but luckily i'll be back in april to go see dane cook.
"How did I know that someday—at college, in Europe, somewhere, anywhere—the bell jar, with its stifling distortions, wouldn’t descend again?"
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| "chasing the ghost of a good thing." |
[02 Mar 2006|11:19pm] |
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"what is it you really want? i'm tired of asking."
"but i believe in you so much, i could die for the words that you say. but i believe in you so much, i could die from the words that you say."
"so please don't let it slip away."
"holding so tightly to something that i'm afraid has already gone by."
"defense is paper thin, just one touch and i'd be in too deep now to ever swim against the current, so let me slip away."
"see the curious girl with that look on her face, so suprised she stares out from her display case."
"now i do as i please, and i lie through my teeth. someone might get hurt, but it won't be me."
"AND I'M NOT SURE WHAT THE TROUBLE WAS THAT STARTED ALL OF THIS. THE REASONS HAVE ALL RUN AWAY BUT THE FEELINGS NEVER DID."
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| "you don't know how it feels, to be me." |
[02 Mar 2006|05:07pm] |
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job interview tomorrow. i hope i get it. it's a full time position at some accounting firm. did a temporary job today at the galt house for some law seminar. it happened to coincide with about 3,000 beta club middle schoolers here for a convention. seriously, can i just say that i am so glad that i'm no longer in middle school and that i will never have to be ever again. one more week until boston. two essays due tomorrow, test on tuesday and then i'm pretty much turning of my brain and preparing for spring break. it's nice to look forward to having a week off of school. that usually doesn't happen unless you're in school and you actually attend class. living at home is okay. i'm looking forward to getting out of the house this weekend. i swear, my brother is a worse kid than i was. he doesn't have any sort of control switch in his head to tell him to stop arguing with my parents. instead, it just escalates to raised voices and an overall unhappy feeling in the house. i am glad that i don't have to worry about rent or lg&e and i have my car back, for the most part.
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